Sep 12 2008
Dry
I want to say first that I am a blessed man and very grateful for God and what he has done for me. This is not a post about woe is me, so please don’t try to console me because I’m fine–or I will be. But I have always been real and transparent so why stop now.
I’m tired. I’m very tired. My mind and my body are exhausted. Spiritually I’m reading and studying my Bible but it seems like God has not made it clear what He is doing. Maybe I’m not ready to know yet. The country is hurting financially and we are in that group. I like working at a large Coffee chain because I get to be around people I would never meet. Unfortunately it doesn’t pay enough to pay the bills. Now some money is better than none so I’m grateful for what I have.
I have a new appreciation for single parents and others who work multiple jobs just to put food on the table. I haven’t worked this hard in years. It is tiring to come home from one job and have to do work for the other and help my children with their homework. Then to try to connect with my best friend Cassandra. I wonder if I’m effective at anything I do. I guess time will tell. I’ve had several opportunities to talk about God at the coffee shop so there are great things happening. I know God has a reason for all of this. I don’t have to understand now. God doesn’t owe me anything but death so I won’t complain. I’m just tired and weary. I remember Henry Blackaby saying that during the dry times God is preparing a person for something greater. I’m ready.
I’ll leave you with the words of Jesus in Matthew 11:28-30
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
